Proverbs...

I haven't had time to blog and I am very embaressed to admit that even though I had a nice long holiday of doing nothing. But my holiday was great. :)

Things have changed a tad, as I am single again. No hard feelings but it hasn't been the smoothest ride either. And as always, I pushed God to the far side of things just so that I can find my feet again. Why do we do that? It's so silly to think that we chooooooose to remove God from the picture. the only one who actually knows us and can actually make a difference. Kind of funny really.And then God still choses to maintain a relationship with us.

I'm a little awestruck at the whole concept.

I asked God for guidance, and boy.. Did he answer back. I won't go into too much details as it's obviously relating to a sensitive subject but to give you an idea - I got a verse out of PROVERBS. Yup. Proverbs. Straight up and forward. Direct. No nonsense answer. In my face.

Yet I still had this little whisper telling me that I could be wrong...

I've learned to discern between my head and my heart (Holy Spirit). The reason I'm putting it this way is that little voice I seem to follow has always been right and I believe with everything in me that that still voice is not my mind but God being an active part of my life as the Holy Spirit. You know, that one split second thought that tells you to look left again as you cross a road and you're just in time to see a car coming speeding your way. Or even as you walk out of your room and a little voice tells you to check if you packed the assignment you've been working on all night. God cares about the little stuff and the big stuff in ur lives. But why have I started this paragraph? OH! ya! This whole year has been about listening to God when my flesh screams for me not to. It's about growing up and being responsible. I dont want to sit in silly situations that could have been avoided if I had just listened to God. I Point being: I listened to that verse, and it turns out God was right. Once again. :)

So pray for me so that I can finally be obedient in anything God sends my way.

Blessings peeps!

xxx

A friend emailed me this story that gave me such a new perspective. In 1800 James Garfield was chosen as the american president and was shot in the back in his office. they could not retrieve the bullet, but after months of doctors poking and groping for the bullet (they did not have aenastetic or proper tools like we do today) he eventually died due to an infection around the wound. The wound never got a chance to heal and this resulted in his death.

How many times do we do this with ourselves? We keep poking at a wound until it festers so much that it causes the death of us. The scar or the bullet will always still be there, God doesn't forget that you aren't hurt. He helps you heal along the way, we need to stop fidgeting with it until we can be healed efficiently.

And who knows, most of the times our bodies end up getting rid of the bullet or damaged tissue itself.

Use your scars, there are people out there who are going through the same thing and can't lift up their eyes to see the hope we have in Christ as you did. irrespective of how and why and when you did.
GOD WANTS TO AND NEEDS TO BE SHARED. He has overflowing compassion on people who walk around with pain in their lives. He made the ultimate sacrifice to that we can live in his freedom and hope and love and joy and peace.

                                                                                                                  Why keep it to yourself?

Whispers

In this absolute quiet You whisper in my heart
Words so sweet that I can't deny the truth
though I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart in You

It's useless trying to analyse, how I found myself so bare
torn apart by a heart I know You hold so dear
but peace floods my heart as it dawns in my thoughts
that you're unchanging , daring to pick up pieces no one else dares

Jesus i'm in awe of You, in love, in grace , in truth
Jesus You're the song, that keeps pulling me through

i run- though You find (pieces of me no one sees)
i lie- though You know (the origins misleading me)
i hide- though You see (the ugly mirror beside me)
i cry- though You're beside me (You kiss the tear off my cheek)
Jesus this darkness reminds me, Your Love never fades
You are You eternally

I'm tempted to wash away the aches in my heart, a christian's lot
though i know better than defining you by such human measure
The actions they chose- broke open such bittersweet wounds
I can't repair those scars left with such neglect
but in my shuddered cry you enfold me and whisper
that you know, but that Your love helps me cover any failure
Jesus, jesus, my Saviour...

My week has been good and bad. I find myself at a place where I am reminded how much I am made up out of dust and unworthy of anything God showers me with, in such a way that I even sometimes feel guilty.
Have you ever felt this way?
Am I alone in this?

I live in a place where the term "prosecution" has no real meaning. South Africa has its politics and its ups and downs, but generally speaking we are a peacefull nation. The word Prosecution stems from the Late Latin prōsecūtiōn-(stem of prōsecūtiō) :a following up. In other words, your past catches up to you, your sins, mistakes... is all on show. Then why am I feeling this way?

I know sins are forgiven and forgotten in the yes of God, and the only one able to judge me for it is God Himself (who sees Christ's Righteousness when he looks at me after I have asked for His forgiveness). 

And then it hit me. 

Ephesians 6:12
"for our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."

Easiest way of distracting the enemy? Make them believe the war does not apply to them. So stand strong in your faith, stand strong in your hope and your love. I will try! the rest is up to God! 

Prayer for the day...

Bring rivers in this waste land, clouds into this sky

Bring springs of life into the wells that have run dry

Ride up in this city, Gather in this light

Pour down on your people, your Glory and your Life

Rain, oh we thirst for water

Rain, we are desert land

Rain on your sons and daughters

Rain bring your rain again

Speak dreams into this water, Envisions to this land

Let oceans be divided and bring forth life again

Rise Up in this city, gather in this light

Pour down on your people, your Glory and your Life

Let the tide roll in washing over our lives

Let your water fall again

Bring rivers to this wasteland, clouds up in this sky

(Day of Fire - Rain)

You need to make today count

In the event of last night I am only left with this song.

We started off our first night of home group quite disastrous, alot of people could not come, in the middle of the talk a friend's brother fell off his scooter and had to be rushed to hospital (which left us with 2 less members) and then a friend had to attend to a suicidal friend whom she hasn't seen in 5 years, only to be too late; and now has to deal not only with her own natural human instinct of feeling guilty but also the mother blaming her.

It breaks my heart because I can feel how tight Jesus is pulling me into his arms with all this, and I'm not even involved. How much more the mother? My friend? the brother?
We need to remember that each and every day counts, and this lifestyle is what makes it worthy of being counted:
(Jesus Culture)
Where You go I'd go
What You say I'll say
What You pay I'll Pray
Jesus only did what He saw You do
He would only say what He heard You speak
He would only move when he felt You lead
Following your heart following your Spirit
How could i expect to walk without You
when every move that Jesus made was in surrender?
I will not begin to live wihtout You
For You alone are worthy and
You are always good
You are always good...

oh, you are always good...

Death and resurrection...

So we go to the Krugersdorp High School once a week just to do some bible study with the girls...
What's AWESOME is how they are responding!!! we get to chat about topics people are normally to scared to chat about... Like death, resurrection and Judgement.

Somehow churches only touch this topic on funerals, which is scary because while we are alive we determine where we will end up after it. Most people have a misconception about this. Fact is: Scripture teaches us that:
1.We all will face death.
2.We will rise to face God in His throne room to be judged according to our good, and evil deeds ons earth.
3.This will determine where we spend eternity. (heaven / hell)

I also want to state something: Hell wasn't created for US, but for the angels who decided to side with Satan. God doesn't WANT us to end up there, He MEANT for us to walk in relationship with Him - Just like Adam and Eve before the fall of sin. He WANTS to love us unconditionally, but somehow (?) we end up thinking that we either have to work for that love (and we lose the blessings God sends our way) or that we never deserve to be loved that way (and we end up never being loved by ourselves or God...)

Isn't that the easiest way for evil to pull our attention away? The statistics speak for themselves regarding depression, anxiety and suicide. God never wants that, you know why?

Because God (whom IS love) NEVER FAILS AND NEVER GIVES UP.

:)

How lucky are we that a GOD decided to LOvE us this way...